Lex_Lee @Lex_Lee@monsterpit.net

📣 trying to get some money saved up so i can move to a better (less triggering) job!!! (please share if you can!) ​

​ ​ ​ i can edit poems, poetry chapbooks and full-lengths, novels in progress, & creative nonfiction

​ im newer at it, but i would love to collaborate w artists in comics and games

​ DM me/hit up my links in my bio and lets see if we can work together! ​

hey i wrote this for AS and it took like.............a long time haha so please give it a read if youre looking for new/more poets to read!

https://www.autostraddle.com/poets-for-your-survival-pack-410195/

im probably gonna make an #introductions post every month but anyways:

im alexis! i write, edit, and am in coding bootcamp rn/trying to get out of my minimum wage/hell job

i focus a lot on mental health/race esp. blackness/trauma/gay shit/autism/and basically storytelling in all its forms!

i have no idea how to end this so.

*jazz hands*

do you ever just remember fanfic exists and your whole world becomes 900% brighter

when you see my content warnings i feel like you think im living and exciting life but then you click only to reveal that isnt true lol

also no one is in the house so that was like 98% of why i was gonna get a drink cause i could do it without anxiety but instead i took my first nudes and sent them to the chat i love these people so much they are so much kinder than i couldve expected

i thought i was sad the liquor store was closed cause its sunday but the dude in front of me let out a full out yell of despair so i just came home happy that this ginger ale was and is gonna be enough

why the hell did i stop reading calvin and hobbes
i should reread all of that immediately

a list:

--i made my first game! people have played it! wow!!
--the above means i finished something i care about and i am still super jazzed about that
--ppl here are v kind and i knew this but i wasnt expecting it to be directed my way
--i did the phone interview it was v good!
--i went to therapy it was v good!
--im still in the workshop and finding new things about myself even though i def thought there was no place for me there
--i found out someone is also autistic and it lowkey explains why we like each other so much (we bonded over wanting to do more gamedev) and i was telling my mom, "you know it kinda makes sense cause they tell the same stories and i always laugh like its the first time i heard it because it feels like the first time i heard it!" and she was like, "you used to do that as a baby, even if i'd said it before you still laughed as if it was the funniest thing you'd ever heard" and that was nice
--i got the BIPOC autistic anthology and teared up when i saw there was a BIPOC autistic fund / like im tearing up just thinking about it tbh
--my sister and my aunt showed up for me when i was too scared to try to go home bc the lyft driver gave me his private number and it didnt seem sketchy but it felt sketchy but idk how to trust my gut and had a panic attack and my therapist talked me through it and my sister listened and asked my aunt to get me and my aunt took me home and i am so thankful for community holy shit
--my cabin is still like a little family i didnt even know i needed i love them so much im glad we're still talking
--i got to hug and hold my cousins and hear their laughter and one cousin took a picture of me and my cousin that makes my heart melt and that makes it so worth it you know?
--pose fx!!!! the house of evangelista!!!
--i have work in like seven hours but! i can come back home and work on the gothic novel jam and also im buzzed and about to go to sleep to bob's burgers and the small mercies are miracle arent they

everyone keeps saying pride month is over but i refuse this month will just last forever it will always be pride (not the capitalistic one, more like the camp i went to)

i was waiting for my idk the fancy command line or w/e to finish updating some stuff and totally forgot about it and i dont even remember what the hell i was doing 😣​

my mom came in my room excitedly to specifically show me which swimsuit she was gonna get me just so she could make a gay joke i love that woman so much

if it pleases the court your honor, i would like to open the floor to responding to this question:

are my survival tactics morally repugnant?

did i drink six margaritas by myself?? *checks to see if i have work tomorrow, answer is yes.*
then, yes, yes i did.

it's going to be hot as firefuck today and im hoping i magically won't have to go in for work and also will have a better job where I'm not scared when i wake up

my group chat asked for consent from everybody before starting a separate nudes chat and i love these ppl so much omg

i ended up buying pixatool bc when i was trying to make a sprite for like three hours i was like HOW DO PEOPLE D OTHIS? and then i saw image to bitsy and felt better and then saw pixatool and it was on salE which is always me weakness and ive been playing around w it and i love it thanks for listening

just played we know the devil, y'all were right its v good and i cant wait to go back and play different endings

today i will play games and write and read w/out guilt or at least minimal guilt

and! my _personals_ on insta went up and let me tell you that is a mood booster and a half and also AHHHHHHH people but AHHHHH good too :D